it was drizzling and i was on my way to work driving. i saw the old couple again! have seen them many times since i moved here (almost two years now...TIME FLIES!!!). depending on the time i have pushed off from my house (still haven't felt 'at home'), i have spotted them at different locations along the 3-km stretch of road.
- most of the time i saw the two of them walking one behind the other or side by side - my heart was heavy for reason i tried not to 'entertain' too long.
- at times i saw only one of them trudging along the side of the road - my heart was heavy 'locating' the other one.
- at times they were walking in the opposite direction i was heading - i knew they were late, my heart was heavy, my mind rolling over what could have had happened that morning or the night before.
- at times they walked fast, at times slow - my heart was heavy, i thought of what they were in a hurry for when they were fast and the meal they could have had missed when they were slow.
- at times the loads were heavy, at times light - my heart was heavy 'feeling' every bit of load, heavy or light.
every time i saw them, i wondered...
- if collecting recycleable materials from trash-bins, house to house, was an option to them or the only-option they had to live with.
- if they were the only members of their family.
- how far they walked each day.
- how many hours they worked a day.
- what they did when they were at home.
- what regular meal they had to stay fit for the work they did.
...until i reached my office where so-called 'mind-over-matters' matters and feelings never matter.
on that particular day when i decided to stop my car and took a shot of them, i wondered a little longer...
....my heart was heavier than any other day before at the thought of them being each other source of strength...
was bored ... killing-me bored ... out of boredom, i googled the word 'thuraya'... these are what i got:
- meaning - ثريّة, ثريّا,الثريا means "the Pleiades" in Arabic.
The Pleiades are a group of seven stars in the constellation Taurus - source.
- name - the name was borrowed into Turkish as a female name, and is in use in both Turkey (as Surayya) and Arab countries (for example Thoraya Obaid)- source.
- proverb - أبعد من الثريا which literally means farther than pleiades - source.
- telecommunications satellite (thuraya 1, thuraya 2 and thuraya 3) of UAE - source.
- satellite-telecommunication UAE-based company - source.
- a town in sudan - but not much info or pictures i could get from the internet about this town. source and source.
note to ponder: my parents agreed to name me suriya...my father changed his mind on his way to the birth registration office. somehow the distance (as far as the plaeides and as near as sudan...LOL) does get reflected when i am in a crowd or social gathering...am never good at mingling...
i read the labels and texted shrh asking what the drugs were for. immediately i got her reply text asking who was seeing a shrink.
the drugs and what they are for:
stilnox (zolpidem) - to solve sleeping problem
lexapro (escitalopram) - for treating depression and generalized anxiety disorder.
propanolol - for thyroid or to control blood pressure
lexapro (escitalopram) - for treating depression and generalized anxiety disorder.
xanax (alprazolam) - to treat anxiety and panic disorder.
fluanxol (flupentixol) - for depression, with or without anxiety
notes:
- these drugs have been prescribed in stages for someone i know
- he suddenly changed...from a positive, confident and enthusiastic person to someone totally opposite.
- these are what have happened....on regular basis he wakes up after one or two hour sleep at two or three in the morning, feels cold but sweats, heart beats at faster rate, mentally and emotionally out of focus, obsessively worries about work and life (have become a burden he cannot handle yet cannot ignore), loses appetite tremendously, thinks about death and is extremely afraid (has not done enough for life at the other side and has not much to leave behind for the people under his care), is easily annoyed and fed up with noises (people asking him of his condition), etc....
- it has been more than one month and he has shown no sign of improvement.
- we have been trying to accomodate him in this poor physical, mental and emotional condition wherever possible.
- ...O Allah! please help him as only You have the means.
- ...these buildings (two of mirror-image) which are refreshing to the eyes are in the new state government administrative centre - nusajaya. had a meeting with one of the government agencies some weeks back and took the pictures while waiting...
- 'the maintenance team is going to suffer!'...how bad my job has turned me into that whatever man-made structures/ installations i like looking at i can no longer fully enjoy looking at this thought.
