mind boggling

1. i have a mole on my forearm...when i was small a friend told me 'you would cradle someone dying as that's what moles on forearms indicate'...
   
   
2. some 18 years back my mother dreamt about me being chased by a snake...i cut off the chase entering a house and slamming the door. this scene repeated in her dream like four, five or six times (she didn't remember exactly how many times but it was several). the dream was a bad sign to her that she refused to tell more...
   
   
3. i am a loner but hardly feel lonely...many wonder how i survive. i am not sure what survive means here. i just live life the way it goes and feel there is nothing wrong with being apart from the crowd (through the years i have developed signs of a demophobia). but in hindsight, if survive means as i understand it, then i have survived as many times when i was in trouble someone would turn up helping...and many times (almost all the time) these people were strangers or people i knew not that well...Allah is Great!...
   
   
4. during a 'nation building' program while i was in high school, in one of the sessions we had to write on a piece of paper the profession we believed our best friend would end up as later in life...my best friend shocked the hell out of me to unfold her piece of paper on which she had written 'a politician'...it was a puzzle to me how she had arrived at that...i was thinking more of 'a doctor' (like i have the determination to focus and struggle to be one!!!) or 'a vet' (i haven't got a clue how i saw myself fit to be one) or 'a farmer' (simply because i love peaceful country life)...so, here what my update is...أعمل كمهندسة... the unfamiliarity of the language spares me the embarrassment of thinking i am one because the work i am doing doesn't serve me to be called as one...
   

must-share me:

1. i block out all dreams i had about snake
2. i rather be a tailor (i like sewing) or a cook (i love food) than a politician!!!

what i look not with my heart

had been at my parents' place for four days from 5 to 8 feb. on 8 feb had some errands to run in one of the buildings at the federal government administrative center (about 25 minutes drive from my parents' place).

took these two pictures while feeling so empty, hoping the issues which kept rolling in my head for the past months would fade off.

my first shot....the palace of justice...
my second shot...the recently commissioned iron/steel mosque(m not sure though)...the dome is not visible...the sun was shining so bright that my low-tech camera was partially blinded...

these two buildings faced each other and in between them were two multiple-storey buildings in which i had my errand done . while taking these pictures i was standing in between the two multiple-storey buildings.

after few days, when i looked at these pictures...i just realized i could not remember how the two multiple storey buildings had looked like!!!...i further tried to recall some buildings i had seen in dec 2009 and last month and i just realized i could not remember exactly how they had looked like ...just blurry images...btw, had i not taken these pictures i would have not been able to recall how the 'palace of justice' and the 'iron/steel mosque' looked like too.

is this a normal thing or am i losing my memory span?

quote from one of my favorite blogs - 'the word forget in mandarin is a combination of two characters, death and heart' -

i have been known as a fast walker - someone with heart problem cannot walk with me...if he or she follows my pace, he or she will collapse...if i follow his or her pace i will suffer a head ache. i just realized all my life while i have been roaming around my head has the purpose of my walking but my heart has always been somewhere else....i am not sure, my heart has been somewhere else or i just never listen to my heart!!!

is not-remembering normal?